Getting ready to leave for Portland Its 7:30 am I thought Rylan was waking up at 6:45 am I ran my boppy and water into the living room and turned on my little fireplace heater went back to get him and guess what, he was ASLEEP !!!!!!!!!!!
He is a little trickster sooo while waiting for him to wake up I finished packing his suitcase started some laundry made sure my advil bottle is full, checked my email and I was thinking about hoping in the shower but nixed that idea because I don’t want to have to
1. Nurse him in a towel while I am still wet (Its kinda cool this morning)
2. Listen to him cry while I get dressed
So now I wait ….Thought I would update my blog…
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Dear Rylan
We had a nice trip over to your Grandma Marys house yesterday to drop off Andrew….We stayed for lunch we had buffalo meat apple salad and regular salad I didn’t care too much for the buffalo daddy thought it was OK ….We stopped at the river to fee you on the way home then to wal-mart to pick up diapers and wipes for our trip to Portland …
I don’t want to go and me and daddy decided that we would talk with the doctor again to make sure that you really really really have to have this done …I know he is going to say yes……..
I am not sure why its so hard on me ….I mean yea it sad that you have to get it done, but Its really tearing me up inside, more that it probably should be …I will do anything to keep you safe… I just keep asking why you and why us….Its Just not fair….I am very thankful that its not some really horrible thing but after all that we have been through, it just seems like I am paying off some bad karmic debt at the expence of my chilren or something…..If that is the case, I hope I am paid up for good …….
7:45 and your still sleeping, I think I am going to go wake you up I want to give you a bath before we leave and we have to be ready to head out the door by 10:30 so if we get the Ronald McDonald room we can be there by 4:30 this afternoon………
Love MOM
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